Think

I always ask what should I ask, then muse about question for a long period of time, a need an answer that can keep me long enough from asking it again.

The question I have with me right now, is a famous attitude of living, 'Be flexible like a circle outside, and be firm like square inside of you.'

I personnaly have conflict within myself all these years.

Isn't this the skill of surviving in competitive world, which is famous of wearing a mask?
Ya, current economy, as Jing Kong old monk said, encourages competing.

I believe behave as what inside of you think or believe, is being honest and true to people you love.

I had also experienced some simple advises or things I expressed offended a lot of the others, who I concerned and loved. Telling myself they might somehow understand me and things will go smooth again. But, it doesn't go like this.

How can I find my own loving society?
The pro-education grateful society.

My friend Sandy, from China said, 'don't read those philosophy too seriously, the world is Cruel.'

I'm grateful, at least someone out there knows I tried to be grateful, tried to be loving.
at least someone knows I'm sometimes alone but strenght and faith always backed me, from deep inside my heart.

I do not want religion to let others make sense out of being moral, and the idea of competitive society really need to be banned.

I should learn more and listen more to the wise people.

I found my family actually read my blog.
'I need a mirror to see myself, what im saying, what im doing.'
'I do not want to build my hapiness or satisfaction on the others' suffering.'
'Communicate is both way, is idea exchange, perhaps you should ask why sometimes.'
'I do mind listen to things you only say but you never do.'
'I'm wish me/you stop being bossy. Bossy is something bad about me'
'I once asked by my drama teacher, "How can you say something so firmly with really knowing it?", I have this in mind.'
'I always have fun seeing people satisfied with a not logic answer and refuse to learn more.'
'how do you know you know?'
Things I do not know how to express when we are facing each other.