Sailing in mind, student of life

nothing left, but a disable family loved child.

2012-02-09T07:11:00.004+08:00

I want a break, from 23 year old;

let me be a 30 year old, and sound like I know the future,

and sound like as if, I know if I could raise a family at the age of 25.

As every other break, it did not last long; soon before I sound like 30, I am 23 again.

IT SHOWED NO SIGN OF SUCCESS.

My philosophy of life was discouraged and disapproved, I was not loved and bleed from loving, left with a ground zero, and all should start from the base again.

Yes, all will start from the base again. All will start from the foundation again. This is fortunate that I can regather and rebuilt all my foundation of knowledge, all my understandings and etc..

Environmental Time Line for Malaysia

2012-01-28T11:51:00.003+08:00

-1992, The shuttered of rare-earth refinery operated by Japanese company Mitsubishi Chemical.

-2002, The Malay Tapir Conservation Project (MTCP)

http://www.malaytapir.org/

-2003 Infection wipes out Rhino Conservation Center breeding program at Sungai Dusun.

-2005 Malaysian Government declares state of emergency due to noxious haze, Port Klang and Kuala Selangor.

- 2006 Southeast Asian nations create fire protection district in a bid to cut down air pollution caused by smoke haze from Indonesian forest fires.

- 2007 February 13^th, Indonesia, Malaysia and Brunei agreed to conserve about 88,000 square miles of rainforest, the Heart of Borneo, WWF announced.

-2007 April 22^nd, Penan tribe in Sarawak state in rural Malaysia set up blockades in an attempt to protect their ancestral land on Borneo from logging.

-2007 April 27^th, Natural Resources and Environment Minister said 14-year campaign to clean up Malaysia’s rivers was a failure.

-2008, Nation launched The National Tiger Action Plan

-2009, Petronas and Shell win contract for Iraq’s Majnoon field

-2011, Malaysian debate Lynas Corp.’s giant construction project for rare earth mining.

Sources: www.eenews.net (Access only with license.) Search term: Malaysia, and I selected issues that are related to Malaysia and sort them into a timeline.

Cause no one else would tell you in an easy way

2012-01-26T20:55:00.005+08:00

This morning I felt my heart beats so clearly.

There are a lot that I have to tell you; If even a person that love you so much cannot tell you this, I am worried that no one else would.

I love you.

There are three things I want to share with you.

1) tool

Well you have some really great tools, but please don't be fooled by your tools. "When you have a hammer in your hand, everything look like a nails." some one said this. Think about what is your tools.

2) success

If you behave in a way where people don't want you to be successful, you won't be successful or at least, happy. I don't know what kind of people you want to help, but if you keep thinking that you are a first class citizen and normal people are mud; you in the end will feel muddy, and hard to move.

3) love

Please please please, take it for granted and don't take it for granted. You have to learn how to love!!! Everyone deserve to be loved, including people around you... Also, love yourself more. Do you like how you are right now? You can always be the one you like, it takes time, and a lot of practice.

So bare this in mind, so in the end you won't be blaming the surrounding for your own eventful life.

Hope..

2012-01-24T21:28:00.003+08:00

Now I want to pray for a good life for everyone.

Also, I wish everyone knows how to get a good life...

I wish you a good life

2012-01-24T04:45:00.005+08:00

You chose a high pressured job!

And you want to pretend to be a non-stressful person.

You care so much about how people looking at yourself, where eventually that is how people look at you.

People who judge, does not love; but people who compassion does love.

This is how you fuck you own life up; or this is why you learn and do all kind of things to help.

I love life for a reason,

where I recognize life,

and live the right kind.

I wish you a good life.

im a bad aquarium.

2012-01-15T12:39:00.003+08:00

I want to figure out something that you needed, and that I cannot provide you.

For example, your family, your home, your friends, your teachers and childhood memories and so many more.

Am I being too selfish?

Companion NEEDED: vacancy

2012-01-07T07:12:00.002+08:00

10 hours of Lab work seems like a average working hours....

I need someone.

Have you ever feel like you need someone to be with you?

I feel like that now.

Yup, I have this bit of strength, for the Korean girl I like

2012-01-06T04:25:00.004+08:00

So many hours flew by,

All the possibilities, worst case scenarios, all the vision, the goals in my life flew by...

If it was not for you, I wouldn't learn to believe hard work make such differences;

Where now I am, at my best, guarding you from falling, holding your smile, cause when you smile, it shines light on me, and I believe, and I smile and walk the hilly road.

Even, if for the future, it was not for you, I will have a meaningful life, a life where I do my best to live the best out of everyone else.

Your decision will not lose you anything, we had what we had, and you will get what you will get, in the end.

I've learn to be strong, and tough, still I cry, but I never will stop.

It probably takes time, I am too young, and there's nothing that I should do other than work my best for the best and the higher opportunities for being with an amazing person like you.

I am doing research!

2012-01-04T05:14:00.003+08:00

=) I finally feel like a scholar!

Thank you Dr. Horton, thank you Dr. Schulz!

Thank you for making me believe that I can do this job!

Through hard times.

2012-01-03T22:53:00.003+08:00

When life gives you a bad lemon, don't make a lemonade.

Sometimes we gather sugar and water and wait for the next best lemon to come.

When everything happen so spontaneously, and you want to take charge of everything, you must be really good at doing so. It make sense that one is overwhelmed at times. Of course, the main lesson is still self-improving when the hard times haunt you, and we have to make the best out of it.

With one exception, when your heart is bleeding like crazy, and half of your soul is swallowed or burnt, learning from the outside might not be a very smart choice. A person being brave enough to recover him/herself is a self-improvement too. Maybe there's something to learn within oneself, or maybe, everything make sense doesn't make sense anymore, and you will need to rediscover the entire outside and inside world all over again.

Remember, every path taken is a necessary path (for self improvement), but time is scarce, we have to be sincere to ourselves, and know that the force is with you, and a lot other people in different parts of the world is praying for people like you, and me.

Year 2011!!

2012-01-01T02:51:00.006+08:00

What have I done since summer???

I volunteered in MELNHE, Multiple Elements Limitation in Northern Hardwood Ecosystem Project, that the project is ongoing in Bartlett Experimental Forest and a couple experimental forest nearby. I enjoyed a lot throughout the project, I learned a lot in terms of working with people, working with the trees, and working with science. The cool thing about it is I get 200 USD per week, which is a good salary back home by doing, volunteer work?! :\ Recently, I was unofficially awarded as the Team Spirit guy on the crew blog!

Also I took a (shit) tons of pictures there which, a good amount of the pictures are here on youtube. The video is a gift I made it for everyone who worked there in the summer. =) I still miss every each of you.

I conducted a project, "Decomposition of cellulose in forest floor with N and P addition", during the summer in Bartlett experimental forest!

I have my first set of data analyzed, and I still don't know how to interpret my data. I revised ANOVA and T-test

The coming semester I will be writing this experiment together with a decomposition experiment that I conducted in spring, 2011, combining the two, as my senior synthesis project. =) I am excited about it.

I found at least 10 other Malaysians in Syracuse! I used to think me and Fatimah were the only one.. haha well, I guess we were wrong. Fatin, Anis and Anis's girlfriend made me Nasi Lemak two days ago. Honestly, at one point, I wondered why hurry going back to Malaysia? x) If there's a Malaysian restaurant here, maybe I can stay longer (Or if someone make me good food a lot I can stay longer).

I took surveying class!!! I am sure a lot of you wonder what is this

Back then I always wondered, what is all these Bangladesh or Mangala, using this yellow camera thing by the side of the road, and we usually swear about them being so close to the road. I was really wrong. They are all professional workers with high mathematical and analyzing skills.

My a lot of first time,

Canoe, hike tall mountain, blueberry picking, wanting to purpose marriage, funeral service in US, Eggnog, real fishing (I did not fish), graduation in US, and etc.

Please forgive me for not mentioning my girlfriend because it's quite unlikely that we can be together for long, but I am working on it.

I promised to write a book dedicated to my grandma. We in Malaysia messed up our history textbook so much where people lose trust on what is in the text. This is very dangerous and this is when history repeats itself. We have to act as soon as possible to capture the farther history we can capture, therefore talking to grandma and grandpa is important... I will talk to my girlfriend about this and see how everything will be figured out.

So I did a lot in the Spring semester and now it summarized my 2011.

for the sake of writing a post, and for myself.

2012-01-01T02:36:00.003+08:00

Yup, to myself,

I did realize how little I post in this past semester including summer. Things has been good. I was told that I can do something that I have never imagine doing, like more experiments (actually instead I would like to call them projects, because they don't involve publishing papers).

Things have been good. I went through a tough semester, but I was very rewarded as well.

I have 3.6 GPA and 3.2 in CGPA now. Which is good, for applying to graduate schools.

I want to thank a lot of people for always being there for me, which I probably already did but it never stress enough that how blessed to have you.

After a semester like this, I finally am more settled in things I want to do, and directions that hopefully benefits everyone.

So my new year resolution: will be in my next post! Happy new Year!

interpretation of two words

2011-12-16T04:05:00.004+08:00

I found two words that are worth thinking about today,

1) Networking,
& 2) Psychological battle.

These are words that are relatively new in the language. Which suggested there are new situations that we encountered these days; hence urge the formation of these words.

Networking,
"Don't wait until we need people to help us out to do networking"

These days, people are no longer brothers and sisters (bible says we are)?
Perhaps not even friends.
Strangers, are the visible invisible; co-workers are potential tools or harm.
Maybe we need more Christian, to spread the words of Jesus.

I imagine, brothers and sisters live with lots of love, understanding, and care.
I imagine the natural network of brothers and sisters, but not the effort burning networking, and worries.

But since it is the way it is right now, I suggest the best networking would be to see everyone at least as friends, if not brothers and sisters (Buddha would say everything, why not?). =) treat people nice, even strangers needed to be respected and heard.

Psychological battle
"Someone else is playing a psychological battle with me this late at night, I guess I won't have a good night sleep."

I remember I used to have psychological battle with myself a lot, and that guaranteed me a bad night sleep (I used to think if I should tell a girl I like her or not). All psychological battle started from ourselves I think, the more you care, the harder you punch your brain (or heart).

The point is, even you live in heaven, you can feel like hell if you keep on battling yourself (like a lot of Americans, let's talk about the details sometimes).

To conclude, I would like to call everyone to love ourselves as well as other people.
Make a heaven out of it!

Who wonder how to make batik a cleaner art?

2011-11-30T00:50:00.004+08:00

What is Batik?

http://www.murnis.com/articles_by_murni/how_to_make_batik.html

How to make Batik?

http://www.how-to-arts-and-crafts.com/how-to-make-batik.html

cleaner production project by Cleaner Technology Unite, Department of Environment Malaysia.

http://cp.doe.gov.my/cpvc/?page_id=945

How?

Hmmm....

What is the value of tropical rain forest to you?

2011-11-29T08:21:00.004+08:00

What is the value of tropical rain forest to you?

some of my friends (8 of them, well I hope someone famous can ask this question) wrote back to me on facebook, listen to what they say....

Its something that we all take for granted

生命的住所。

I loveeeee forest ♥

Priceless because Malaysia is in there!

frog lives there=i live there?!

khazanah.

one of them must be "potential travel destination" lol

species diversity, carbon sink, regulate atm gases, balance earth's ecosystem

What do you think?

longtime ago I made a lousy video, x) but I had fun, you can check it out at:

http://www.youtube.com/user/zhenyu1989?feature=mhee#p/a/u/2/gA-Y2icWqCE

Thank you the day of rest

2011-11-25T02:24:00.003+08:00

I remember both grandpa and grandma use artificial teeth since I was young.

So potentially, I would have to use those one day too.

I am more certain about this because there was once in a restaurant, I told the lady the noodle is a little hard, and she said 'no, it's because you have soft teeth'. I laughed, and thought that Korean people has strong teeth (was a korean restaurant).

It bleeds a lot when I was brushing my teeth today. Nothing just saying, I am not scared, or intimidated at all, really.

It's something that I shake my head, and knowing what is going on later in my life.

K, maybe a little 'holy cow life is tough' feeling, but it's okay.

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The one thing I know I have to do today is the only thing that I haven't started doing.

I ate breakfast, clean the house a little bit, tidy up my study desk, look at random corner of the house, sort my cloths into the cupboard, charge my phone, count my cash, go online, write some postcards, eat lunch, use bathrooms, brush my teeth, try a new pants that I bought, and etc.

Ya, I haven't started studying today.

Instead, maybe I am being reluctant to study.

In fact, the day I did nothing, is the day I did the most things.

Today is a day of rest.

Happy thanks giving!

we are I am and you are.

2011-11-22T03:39:00.004+08:00

Now that I know who you are, what you need, and your thirst,

I hope that you learn that you are not, you don't need and wish for the best that love will clear your thirst.

It's okay if having me is a measure of part of your success, I am honored, I'll still hold you tight when successful is clear to you.

Right now, I guess I am really in love with you.

Lost and found! ;)

2011-11-20T13:39:00.004+08:00

I was lost, but now am found, was blind, but now I see..

----Song: Amazing grace.

Life is so tough, I hope everyone can take it with a happy tough heart and whole heart of gratefulness!

Title of the picture: You know what I mean!?

Where yours and my heart are the frequent visitor of the lost and found desk.

Overtime we learn where to find it back better, but not always, just might, but it's okay.

Environmental heart! Heart the environmental!

I guess I need you too.

2011-11-19T11:48:00.001+08:00

And I hear footsteps,

I turned my head,

it was not you,

I guess I need you too

two quotes and some photoshooting

2011-11-02T06:30:00.003+08:00

a lot of people came up some really awesome quote that works for me.

the most recent quote like "Every path is necessary"--- Sunny Ni

“你所走的每一条路都是必经之路。” ---倪小乐

and

"when you are doing your assignment you will actually feel calm cause you know you are doing it; don't worry while you are not, cause you will." ----Erica Schmitz

不要忙，忙多错。

I guess life is great... well I do some pictures available on facebook, and I did a photoshooting for my friend it was pretty funny...

here's the link to the photos, LOL

http://www.ariumillusion.com/Other/amos/19818220_bD6RxZ

enjoy? x)

reporting myself.

2011-10-20T05:31:00.000+08:00

I am studying hard, and indeed sailing in mind.

she and I

2011-10-12T05:45:00.001+08:00

New life =)

Thank you papa, mummy, lim chuan yang, lim jiang yan...

negligible for the goods.

2011-10-05T11:49:00.004+08:00

I know you did not tell me something for a reason.

For the reason that I am neglected in the decision consideration, I accepted that idea of your exchanged convenience, that saved you time.

You know I want you happy.

Refreshing =D !

2011-10-03T00:27:00.001+08:00

I finally realized why the past few days was so miserable and so demotivated...

I forgot to drink water... I mean pure water...

I was going out with friends, hanging out a lot... but the amount of water I drink is severely not enough....

Sigh... it was a mistake!

Regenerated!

an ads for water!

when let's say I have a girlfriend?

2011-09-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

For such a long time, I haven't been having any secrets (Not that I tell everyone I sometime watch porn).

Life is then really easy and free; There's nothing to hide, nothing that you cannot do and you may seem very brave and approachable.

A lot of people are not secure about their information and "privacy" being posted online. "That's true, as internet and technology flourish, security is being sacrificed," my friend Lao Bao said.

I am nobody to be harmed (I think).

For a smart enough person, it doesn't make economical sense to make my life worse or better.

I rather appreciate someone spend time studying me; then harm or not harming me is another story after.

My friends know me, my family knows me, even if anything happened, they will be there for me. I don't give a shit about losing faith in being with people (or sharing information online). I am still teaching myself to learn myself (the blog helps me a lot), and also to learn being with other people. I know I failed being with people, most of the time (close to sometimes).

A friend of mine, Jane, came to me so excitingly talking something about reading my blog, and she mentioned a word "quote", and I was like "Oh please don't quote me," interrupting what she was saying (I meant it for I was so full of myself). She said no, that wasn't what she was doing, and I felt the disappointment and we haven't really talked since then.. I will never know what she wanted to say before, I killed the excitement and failed being a friend.

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I am talking from a perspective that I can afford to lose anything.

It is a little different, when let's say I have a girlfriend.

Or is it not?

I don't know.

HAHAHAHA

2011-09-15T07:51:00.004+08:00

Happy life =) !
For sometime I lose myself and doubt truth....

Really, what do you believe in?

I believe I did my best, I believe I am way fortunate than I suppose to be, I know I can be free once I stop worrying about things like losing you, or losing me, or losing anything.
I guess that's why I tell people I am not quite free recently. Or I also say, I'm busy.

So I met this person, HAHAHAHAHA.

I stop doing a lot of things I like. I was worried. Then, you, I start doing things that I like. And then, I am happy and I start again.

Work work! Thank GOD!

Planet of the Monyets: If I were the Minister of Natural Resources and Environment

2011-09-05T22:07:00.001+08:00

Planet of the Monyets: If I were the Minister of Natural Resources and Environment

check this out!

some point in life.

2011-09-05T20:53:00.005+08:00

I was pretty lost in terms of environmental ethics and daily habits regarding to help the environment.

Well I learned a few things.

Researches and experiments are the product of leftover money.

In the economics world, no politicians (and also other people) take scientific research so seriously.

It's not something bad, or something to blame, or anything; It's just something that happen in the past.

Everything counts (a lot of people said this too, Buddhist, some TED speakers and etc).

I should do things that I am most capable of doing and also most aware of doing, maybe it gives me a better sense of what I do. But everything counts, does it mean it doesn't matter what I do, I will also be able to help the environment or actually, living quality of people is more of my concern. Suddenly I have a much wider choices in life.

A good news is I do love to learn, if I can make a living just learning, it meant a lot to me.

I have no conclusion. Back to musing!

I miss you

2011-09-02T09:16:00.004+08:00

For a guy, at times he misses a girl a lot and might have hard time just like that. (It's hard to understand, that's emotions attached)

I guess, we have to find a way to cheer ourselves up, do something that's happy, think about our passion, and go on.

Cause I heard, just so, our positive make your day better, and it makes you smile.

I might call you at the wrong time, while you were reading, washing dishes, doing work, or in the middle of any thing.

That's why I hang the phone up quick, wish you night, and I'll be doing my things as I said.

Let me continue to miss you myself. Guys my age tend to lose themselves so easily.

I like you smile.

In order to be happy, I have to be happy to make you happy so that I am happy.

It may sound bitter, it hard to please myself too, I know.

Well I write blogs, I will be happier, then you will be happier and I will be happier ... . then... .

is then.

I am in love with you, and I missed you, and I didn't know why I have a hard time, I am in love with you.

Hopefully I will grow up faster. If that being the reason.

simple complicated words.

2011-08-30T11:59:00.003+08:00

I can only tell in simple words that cannot express my complicated heart.

I wished you good night, sweet dreams.

But I also meant, I miss you, I want to see you, when can I see you again and I probably won't hear from you but I did all I can to hope you sleep well and be comfortable.

:'(

Over Optimistic.

2011-08-28T00:30:00.007+08:00

I am one of the kind, according to my new housemate Chris, The Over Optimist.

It's a compliment I think?

If you haven't realized a lot of your happiness came from others efforts, I am telling you now, happiness came from a lot of effort. (either yours, other people, other stuff, other life form and etc.)

Usually people see it as the stimuli and the receiver.

Some people get so happy so easily, some don't.

Some people get happier when more senses were stimulated and all conditions are in the right mood.

More of a kind, generates a specific atmosphere in an environment or aura of a place.

A lot of people, through religions, they learned how to be grateful for even a tiny piece of bread, and they learned how to love even everything wasn't in favor in them. I imagine they are very sensitive and peaceful to the surroundings and they learned how to appreciate efforts either from the past, present or for the future.

Some learned through self discoveries, like exploring and feeling every tiny senses you have in the body, and being amazed by things within themselves and could be independent of outside stimuli (some people call these people the crazies).

Probably, a whole lot of people learn it somehow in 'normal' (no life is not special, but let's call it normal for daily languages sake) life.

If you think good, do good, and be happy, other people can feel it too. Depends on how sensitive they are? or how happy you are?

Or most people felt it before, when you are down and emotional, people around it felt it too, sometimes even, they will have a bad day too.

Help generate a happy places, keep yourself, happy, look around you, a lot of stuff can be appreciated, and a lot of effort keeping you alive everyday. They are not free. Even Nature is not free.

"We really survived as human, but we live when we love." --- I am sure someone else said this before.

Back to school for Fall, 2011

2011-08-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

I am back to my University. It was really really excited to hear from someone around school. I guess I like school.

Life goes on x), good things will happen if I do my best.

I know you are really good at waiting, but I won't keep you waiting for too long!

Oh my, it's nice to have an extra passion in life.

Korean language is so beautiful because I learn it through you, KiKang Bae, Susanna, In Su.

"You make it easier~ when life gets hard.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend,

lucky to have been where I have been,

somehow I am going back to school again~~~ain"

handy notes.

2011-08-18T09:37:00.003+08:00

One person love story.

She asked me why I write this in my hand.

Something I don't have to make you secure that I can never get is my age.

I'll find you someone like me but older, cause I am sure you'll be happy with me.

Let me have myself a one person love story. I want you happy.

I looked into the mirror today, I see a size older of me, and I look good.

Some people just haven't realized they are growing old at all time. Some get trauma when they find out, some regret, some lost their directions, a lot others handle that pretty well.

Growing old is something to appreciate too.

MELNHE summer 2011, You will be missed

2011-08-14T12:03:00.001+08:00

Summer 2011. Everyone will be missed. Including the SCAs, Janet, Bartlett Experimental Forest, Pleasant View Farm Crew, etc.

FBR

2011-08-07T12:41:00.005+08:00

Before I offend anyone, or anything, I have to clarify that I was scared as hell, and being too protective for myself.

The way back, I hear my own breathing, have all my anger released and all I have left is the quiet slow pace of rhythm and footsteps. I still hate bar. Eventhough quite some karma will be deducted, I still have to say, I hate being in bar. I tried. I reserved the opportunities for future, for I should figure out a way to care less about it, hopefully, like it eventually.

FUck Bar. Fuck cheering me up in bar.

Being in bar is probably one of the least quality time spending with friends. For I don't like shouting to friends, and don't like talking meaningless stuff. For I can't drink, and hate people peer pressuring drinking. For I'm not sure why people can behave so differently in a bar. For I am not sure how much that I communicate remains in the next morning.

Thank you for being my friends, before you decided to leave.

I felt like my heart was being like a playdough for you. I really don't like it. I only have these amount of friends that I can't afford to lose, and that's not you. Fuck you too.

Nothing.

Just me in my little own world.

I could have gone out and have a fresh air, but I rather I was categorized drunk.

Sun will raise, sigh

2011-08-05T14:34:00.005+08:00

I stayed awake for a little longer tonight.

Allowing the fragileness from deep inside my heart to be exposed cause I think he needs a breath.

Just like me, I need to take a deep breath too.

It has been a lot of things to digest from summer.

Sun will raise.

SIGH!

My day was okay.

2011-08-04T12:03:00.000+08:00

I had a bad day.

And then I felt bad having a bad day.

it became a okay day.

two minus give you a '+'

I think I am hired

2011-08-02T10:31:00.005+08:00

Well, I think I am hired.

I don't have to worry about getting a job after graduation (at least for a year).

I was thinking about publishing a book for my grandmother, for her story from China to Malaysia is so interesting, and her cooking is so good. In combination of both, it would make a good book to publish (or at least document for our own sake).

I have been thinking about it for a while, and it make economical sense to me to really make that happen after graduation. So when I was on call with my mom yesterday, I told her about it, and she said she would like to sponsor me for making that happen. Personally I think I have some saving (actually my parents' saving under my name, but whatever), that I rather spending all of them for something good for my family and does less harm to anyone else.

"A 1950s new Malaysian Chinese Story"

How does that sound?

Hope this dream will come true.

I am working on it.

To you know who

2011-07-26T10:42:00.002+08:00

Hi friend, the very fragile friend,

There's nothing much in my mind, but a lot in my heart. I am feeling you, not thinking you.

Stay strong. For we are all there.

Amos Lim Zhen Yu

Follow-up death by burger

2011-07-17T09:18:00.005+08:00

The person I saw that survived burger.

Death by Burger (DBB)

2011-07-16T11:59:00.004+08:00

Everything can cause death. For instance, recently in a restaurant located in North Woodstock, NH, I have found a new way to die, it's called the Death By Burger (DBB).

Neal survived after eating this 18 oz (0.53 litre) burger at one meal.

I used to tell my friend one American meal can feed my whole family. But this is for real. this particular meal can feed my family for three meals.

Death can cause by anything.

Appreciate life.

note: Death by Burger is the real name, they mean it.

Dish silence

2011-07-05T02:58:00.004+08:00

Break the dishes silence

"I guess I am doing dishes today." Russell said.

It was such a relief for everyone for it is a warm chillax moment after an awesome meal and no one feel like doing anything to ruin the awesome moment.

star night

2011-07-01T11:08:00.008+08:00

Yesterday night dark sky was filled by the gazing stars.

Today dark sky was filled by gazing stars but we are watching the clouds that are watching them.

From what I have seen, what I have heard.

2011-06-27T11:35:00.008+08:00

Something when all people know but not discuss about, should be talked about more frequent.

some people might ask "why?"

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Things like Asians look the same:

I learn this lesson pretty early in my life. I was born in Malaysia (which located in Asia).

There's huge population of Malay, Chinese and Indians in Malaysia. Being a Chinese, I spent most of my life in the Chinese bubble. To be honest, I was not very good at recognizing Indian faces, until I have a very good Indian friend. Same thing as to other races, like Caucasians, Africans, Middle Easterners, & etc.

I learned that everyone has to be exposed to one races to really know and recognized the individuals faces.

If you are an Americans that think Asians look the same to you, don't worry. Chances of exposing to Asians are pretty high (think of populations wise probability), once you get to know a few good Asians friends, you will find you are getting better in recognizing faces.

Some Asians can't tell if a person is from Japan or Korean or China, it's just something like you can't tell if a person is from Germany, France and others. You might think you find it stereo typically right, but I doubt that this proud last long. You might eventually learn that you are wrong, it's just a matter of time.

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Or things like being afraid to touch the toilet bowl.

A lot of people are afraid of of touching the toilet bowl (other than touching the sitting part with their butt).

It is important to talk about this, or some people will never learn. It's either germ phobic or a well trained classical learning pattern while one is young. It helps that you don't eat shit while you were young and stuff, but if kids like this grow up not knowing how hard it is to clean it, they will pee everywhere (I have seen drunk people shit everywhere (left mess as prove, not that I see through the wall).

Treat the toilet properly.

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Lastly, phobia of filtered food mass in the dish washing sink.

(credits: google image)

Some people get upset when left food not able to 'disappear' by the sink. A lot of people ignore it because every time they walked away and find that it's gone when they come back. It "DISAPPEARED".

If you still have doubt, I have to let you know. There must be somebody clean it or removed it using their hand. The sink don't need to consume leftover food to survive.

Anyway, the point I am trying to make is that someone has to do the job, if you chose not to do it, it will sit there until somebody do it.

If you think that's fine, let people judge you whatever they want, you earned it.

Forest Ninjas and City Ninjas

2011-06-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

After thoroughly experienced working in the woods, I propose Forest ninja and City ninja are very different.

Forest ninja should be the ancient version of Ninja that train in the woods a lot.

Thus it is logical that they cover up their own just so they can avoid bug bites. Black cloths is just the cheapest available stock at those time.

They usually gang up for fight, thus it also make sense that they terrified surrounded people.

Current city people really lose the sense of Ninja art. With no bug bites in the city, City Ninja doesn't need to cover themselves thoroughly. They even use thinner clothing, just so the sales will be expected to be at the maximized potential profit (cheaper material, higher market demand). But even I sound so, it does represented most ninjas that moved to the city.

They rarely meet up with each other, like most city people and cities neighbors. They only meet up when they get paid to walk in a fashion show.

Symbolic animals in Bartlett

2011-06-26T05:07:00.004+08:00

Animal in Bartlett

Bartlett is a small town located in New Hampshire. It is surrounded by White Mountain, and Mount Washington is about 20 minutes driving away from Bartlett.

After spending one month and half in Bartlett, we have a rough idea about Bartlett’s famous animals. We estimated their population size based on our own exposure experience. Check out the following picture.

We heard that Moose is a symbolic animal of Bartlett but however based on our own experience, they are mosquitoes and black flies.

Written by REU:

Liu Lin, Amos Lim Zhen Yu

June 26th, 2011

Working Humor

2011-06-23T04:53:00.005+08:00

I am currently working in Bartlett Experimental Forest. The work involves equally amount of field work and lab work so far. When I first got here, I was in the field all the time, gathering sample, and putting in more labeling stuff in the field.

Until recently, we have started doing work in the lab.

We spent the entire day, sorting tree roots from soil (don't ask me why, cause I am not quite sure too). The first day did not go well.

The work was just too tidios with only accompanied by pretty good music.

We found listening to Harry Potter story book reading while sorting roots gave us least pain, yet more pleasure. We have listened to at least one book so far. From middle of book four to the second half of book 5. Harry Potter was asked to take care of the little giant (to prove we really did listen to the book).

While listening to the story telling, an advertisement pop up my mind (not used to anything that doesn't has ads). So ya, see below:

In Malaysia the famous brand would be : Panadol

The US will be more familiar with : Nsaid

The Chinese might use: 快克 or 必理痛。

It cures your headache, apparently scar ache too.

Pollinator

2011-06-16T10:20:00.004+08:00

Have you ever amazed by other living organism?

It's horrifying when it does harm isn't it?

I think it's the same for other living things too.

They are more horrified than amazed by us.

Tommorrow

2011-06-13T05:05:00.002+08:00

I slept and I woke up again.

What's at the next turning?

Wood Identification E-mail.

2011-06-07T06:41:00.001+08:00

So I bring a popsticks to the Wood Product department and ask if they know what kind of wood it was made from. So the clerk brought me to this lady, and she said it probably take her 15 minutes to identify it, and she ask if I could leave my email and she will then send me an e-mail about it.

And she really did. I was impressed and amazed for half an hour and the feeling is still here.

SUNY-ESF is an awesome place.

The following is the content of the e-mail:

"Dear Amos Lim Zhan Yu,

Your wood samples are birch and are likely the species Betula papyrifera, common name paper birch. Paper birch has pith flecks, lower specific gravity, and lighter color than the other birches. Also, microscopic features best fit the description of paper birch.

Best Regards,

Susan E. Anagnost, Ph.D.

Chair and Associate Professor

Dept. of Sustainable Construction Management and Engineering

Director, N.C. Brown Center for Ultrastructure Studies

President, Society of Wood Science and Technology

SUNY College of Environmental Science and Forestry

One Forestry Drive

Syracuse, New York 13210

(315) 470-6880

seanagno@esf.edu"

Check this out!

2011-06-06T05:24:00.002+08:00

So I have this professor that told me ten times to call her just Ruth, and send e-mails with Title of Check these out!

She's awesome.

Plans in mind.

2011-06-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

Being an Environmental Science Student, we were told to deal with mess, and tons of problem solving. Normally we get pretty depressed knowing all the facts we have to learn and analyze.

Instinctively we like to tell people what to do and what not to do. In my case, I think I like to deal with something most people doesn't want to deal with. Like waste, garbage, compost or something people can't really do anything about it like nutrient cycling in soil. Maybe just so I can skip the annoying part of telling people what to do, and even cooler to have people ask me what to do, and how to deal with those kind of stuff.

Life is fortunate now. I tried a composting experiment, I deal with paper using Oyster Mushrooms, and now I am involved in a forest experimental project involving some soil respiration, minerizaltron and limiting elements in the woods. If the luck continues, I might be able to study lignin decomposition in these woods too.

I learnt that I was on my own, and I knew that I was being taught of things that I didn't know of in life. It's good that things fall into how you plan, but really what you really know is limited. That's why I sometime push myself to learn and at least hear the others, just so I felt I at least think of everything that I can possibly think of.

I did a lot in Spring 2011.

2011-05-30T03:32:00.005+08:00

Spring, 2011 semester was a fruitful semester to me.

Despite my complain for to much free time for a 12 credits hour semester, I figured there's a few things that I can learn from and there's a few things that I might always recall and smile or laugh as it happened.

To start with, I have got:

A in a 2 credits Research

A for 1 credits information Literacy

B for 3 credits Introduction to GIT (Geospatial Information Technology)

A- for 3 credits Introduction to Economics

B for 3 credits Practical GIS (Geospatial Information System)

A semester GPA of 3.4

and a CGPA of 3.0

It was an easy semester and I am fortunate enough to get myself involve in a lot of campus events.

I conducted my First Experiment under a professor advisor.

>>>I am sure that I have done so many things that could be considered as experiment, but officially recognized but not able to be pubblished this is the first time, due to so many incomplete facilities and insufficient of experiences issue. I have a facebook album that kinda show and describe my work. (innoculation, autoclaves, mycelium, fungus, 'happy', C-TAB, Pleurotus Ostreatus, scatch paper, mycorrhizae, Bromite, FUNGI. I have learned so many things and I have to thanks every each in Horton's Lab. I miss everyone. Thank you so much)

I grew mushroom on paper.

>>>Being one of the side project for research class, I was given this oppurtunity to fill up my free time with trying to grow oyster mushroom on the scratched paper. Which they do grow on scratched paper. Oh this reminded me, I shall upload all the pictures when my laptop is fine again.

I did my first PCR and RFLP after years of repeating them in Biology Text books.

>>>Again this is for my experiment to indentify the existence of Oyster mushroom in the compost. And also I attempt to helpout in the lab but apparently I think I at least did this once for the lab. I was amazed, touched and excited doing PCR and RFLP(a believe it or not moment).

I joined Music Society.

>>>I sing in a group of talented instrumental players. Kevin, Tina, Karl, Kyle, Nate, Michelle, Emily, Laura, Sam Thank you so much. I actually played some soccer one day too.

I joined Earth Week Commitee.

>>>Due to free time overload, I went to Earth week committee to help.

I learned Arc GIS.

>>>I finally learned a cool program that can change the world (world map I mean). Using satelite images and Arc GIS software, really, a lot of work can be done.

I grew my first potato.

>>>My roomate has this expired almost rooten from inside potato and I decided to give it a try and dug some soil to grow the potato. It grew and greens my room for a long while, before the container got stuck and it started smells bad because of anaerobic reactions from the poison roots.

I witnessed a new Syracuse snowing record with a 2/3 more than the previously record.

>>>I shoveled like a crazy dog one day. x) was fun.

I made tiny little video clips for environmental awareness.

>>>please visit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gA-Y2icWqCE

just a little pride, not saying it's a good video, but my life just got happier the moment it was published on youtube.

I went to a lot of on Campus talks and tour by campus group.

>>>This is when you realized so many people around the world are doing something so good for the world, and when you realized you are not the only one who work like them or also where you realized one day you can be like them. In conclusion, it was some inspiring moments of ma life.

I made a recycleble room decoration for my room. (Cheating with some tapes.)

>>>Just so I don't have to spend money on stuff in my room, and also I don't have to bring new stuff back to Malaysia. I would like people to intrepret it as Art, Environmental Awareness Effort, experimenting zero waste, and leisure fun.

I played frisbee and joined Ultimate frisbee.

>>>I remember throwing the first frissbee was so excited but watching it went the other directions was some frustration. =D I play on the field, showing off to all the child in school right now)

I have got my hair cut.

>>>Twice. Where I would more appreciate the first time in the semester. Fatimah and Chris cut my hair and I have 50s Like and a few more tens of facebook comments in 24 hours. More than birthday wishes on facebook believe it or not. For those who are curious, check my facebook profile out. isn't that crazy? the second time was no fun at all, both Fatimah and Chris Brought my to the hair salon. I will never forget this in my life. I wonder if my child will have facebook.

I witnessed one of the worst Syracuse rainstorm ever.

>>>I remember so clearly about the flooding video infront of Bird Library (the library i am blogging right now) and the Kayaking picture on facebook. I will also remember the warning by some random meteorologist and seeing the road literally came off the road as if there was an tiny earthquake.

I have some groups of friends that I will never forget.

>>>

1) The Chinese people I meet every Friday 10:35am to 11:35am.

2) Music Society people (especially Old Timey Music Group, including Sam)

3) SzuChia's Housemates

4) Rachel, Samantha, Chris, Fatimah and friends.

5) Horton's Lab members (I want to include Arnold).

6) Friday Night Volleyball (10pm to 1am)

7) Amanda Temple

8) KiKangs and a few fellows Ruth's Lab members.

9) GIS classmates.

10) Some earlier friends (Vicky, Dave, Rachel and the rest.)

I made play-doh Pokemons.

>>> with the guidance of Artist Alaina, I made a team of 6 pokemons. Facebook pictures available on facebook. (duh!)

I took so many pictures for people who concern.

>>> Usually I am so clear in my mind, my family members need to see these pictures. Overall it saved my time, clearer visually represented college life, and it serves as some documentation of my life too. I always believe that knowledge and wisdom especially easy to recognize that they grow bigger through love and sharings.

I played Volleyball every week.

>>> except one.

GONE IN THE WOODS

2011-05-25T11:35:00.002+08:00

Too much information for now...

Away for a break for digestion.

Thoughts needed to be digested before they are said.
GONE IN THE WOODS

Being a teacher.

2011-05-22T10:02:00.002+08:00

I remember roughly this time a year ago, I asked my high school teacher for advise about if I should go back to teach in my high school. (Ogawa and Lee Tian Poh)

I remember this one question pretty well, Ogawa asked me, "Well, do you like teaching?",

and I answered I want to know how well I can communicate. Then he replied me, "No, if you don't like teaching, don't teach, you will screwed somebody else's life." (some meaning like this)

I actually thought about it over a year.

I like helping people learning, and I like to communicate with my shitty languges mixed, I like to test my skills and find new challenges, and I have so many ideas that I don't want them to be wasted.

I think about everything that might make me a good teacher.

And no, I don't want to be in a school.

Unless the school is loving enough to let a child run on a field, or to let a child interview some international tourist, and to see something new things together and really learn together and not only verbally saying that.

Unless the school agrees that children should be able to move with the music or build their own toy.

If I can do so well in my paper but I fail my life, I don't know how to have fun, I don't know the relationship between people, I don't know how to express my emotions, etc. Life will still sucks if we cannot sense the habitat of being happy.

So yeah, I will share thoughts and experiences in life, helping other people looking for their answers. After all, teaching is just a term, what you do is that that matters.

Enjoy life.

you and me

2011-05-06T11:12:00.002+08:00

I realized that I am largely a result of people around me mostly while I am young, but in fact even now.

That's why I love people around me, because you made my life.

work work.

2011-05-04T14:35:00.005+08:00

Today I was having a hard time, linking a few scientific knowledge together.
As fungi, bacteria were generally identify as decomposers, I was thinking what is their portion of contribution in the material cycle. Could decomposing largely due to abiotic factor? For example, iron rot mostly by water and gas.

But really I don't know.
I bought a microbiology textbook for 13 bucks online, and I want to self taught my own about microbioactivity.

Did I mention that I am going to a Ecological station for summer? I will be working on Soil Respiration, (which is something really simple, but I was thinking to see the complexity behind) mostly collecting data, hopefully be able to do some compost.

My life have been great.
I just knew it would be better.

Dear diary series 3 or 4

2011-04-27T06:23:00.005+08:00

So after a hot day of around 28 degree Celcius,the school experienced a heavy rain today at around 3pm. Two building flooded and have to shut down the power supply.

Malaysia is not so bad after all.

A few roads flooded.

Malaysia is not so bad after all.

I experienced another movie scene today.

We had this storm alert messages sent by the university safety department, and I met this guy that told me another storm is coming from the west.

I saw cracked and slightly broken roads, and some small flooding on the roads.

A guy left the restaurant saying be safe in this kind of weather.

This is so the day after tomorrow xD

I love this experience.

And I really like the rain, because it reminds me of Malaysia.

A proposal to the world -- After Work Position.

2011-04-27T02:01:00.003+08:00

I would like to write a proposal for a After Work position for every organization in the world.

Most commonly seen, organization form a hierachy structure. The different position in the hierachy tells us the different decision making for the organization. We will discuss the position for the After Work position after I explain a few function of the position.

Function

Mostly related to material wise, After Work position :

1) Evaluate the allocation of scarce resources for any particular work done.

2) Make sure the group utilize all the material resources to their last bit also perhaps seeing the value from the commonly think non-valueble stuff.

3) Clean up the "mess", and make sure the image of the company is well represented.

4) Summarize lesson learnt from work done, and generate useful feedback to the organization.

5) Realize the responsibility of reducing environmental impact of the organization/company.

A leader position

The After Work position require the leadership that helps his/her peers to see the incentives of joining the After Work group. The knowledge of material management is essential and the willingness to explore more opportunities to increase material value defines the ability of such position.

Earns the organization/company a better name and respect

Especially in recent decades, environmental awareness has raised globally. More people respect organization/company that really make effort to reduce their impact to the surroundings. And make the peers proud too. Save the earth!

Also, with the ability of the After Work position, organization/company is able to pay more attention on the feedback from the rest of the world, and perhaps learn mistakes that they have done.

Personally, I think it gave the peers a better feeling of closure after every work(events) done, and be able to focus on the next job on hand.

Hopefully, people who took this After Work position is able the earn enough penny-profit to survive his/her job.

Would you ever felt too little attention is paid after every event you did?

Did you left the name of your organization/company to somebody else's hand?

Do you want to make an effort to be more responsible as a citizens of the world?

The core idea is reaching a full potential of any individual organization/company.

For a better world.

leisure proud.

2011-04-23T12:56:00.003+08:00

Today is a Inspiring day for me.

I took a few deep breath for a while, and realized that I could have done something better, which I can do it now.

Part of the past left me thinking about being good at one thing that can lead me to a success life, and darn, I am damn good at being myself at times, that means I will do what my thought teach me to do, such as something I wanted to do since long time ago... that is something FRESH (not that it's still fresh from long time ago but something that I could also learn about ideas.).

I grew potatos and onions, those were fresh for me, I did compost, and I failed doing it, that was fresh, but now I want to master it, because THAT is FRESH fresh forrr MMEEEEE! FRESH MEAT (butcher purring [from DOTA, in case you don't know]).

Yeah....my compost experiment has called off by my professor, and damn that makes me burn, burn burn, that I am so gonna master it.

AND CHECK for doing something for the environment during free time. Ohhh YEAAAHHH~

Grandparent's attic

2011-04-20T11:26:00.002+08:00

I have just borrowed a guitar from a professor.

It is her father's guitar that was still aging in the attic.

I follow the sound of her footsteps going up the stairs and bit by bit seeing the entire attic that is stuffed with all kind of grandparent's stuff: Paintings, toys, furniture, boxes, & etc.

It was really exciting to see a real attic.

Attic - a new powerful vocab.

Dear diary series 2 or 3

2011-04-17T13:31:00.002+08:00

It was an amazing experience on facebook, which I posted a picture of the ambiguous(knowing from the feedback) hairstyle my friend did me and getting tons of hilarious comments, wall post, and comparison to famous stereotypical characters.

I spent so much time replying so many messages (and ofcourse reading them) and laughing in front of my screen because of the jokes they make about the hair.

This is where I experiences tiny changes (changes in hair length) can have momentum. Like singing, the cost of happiness was just a few more breath. Amazing things can happen, and it is always amazing because they surprises you. You'll never knew before hand.

I was seen and heard by people. I need to see and hear people because being people is about being seen and see others, and being heard and hear others. I definitely learn this thought from someone else, which I would be so happy with myself if I practise it.

Again good life

2011-04-16T04:25:00.002+08:00

So this is life.

I try and try and try till I say forever good bye.

I practice ethics to get a good life.

Life has been good and fruitful that I was able to share, to feel, and to realize the value I value much.

I don't mean to overrate the Life, I also aware that we have effort to make to make this real, and I am happy and proud of the effort I made.

That's when I had enough, and sometimes more tolerate than what I usually would tolerate.

I fell asleep *free falling in me.

Let's wondering around for a while before getting some work done.

*I learn this term from a friend name Ashley in SUNY-ESF. She writes poem and there's this one line that stuck with me ever since the first time I heard her poem. "I free falling in you", I thought I felt it.

(If I felt it wrong, it was not on purpose.)

Malaysia's Brain Drain

2011-04-12T10:48:00.003+08:00

Hello,

I read this article about Malaysia's Brain Drained, and I find it make so much sense for me and it matches what I observed growing up from Malaysia:

http://www.asiasentinel.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=2308&Itemid=199

And then I use this article for one of my economics assignment which I think is appropriate to put this up on my blog.

So here is it, a little bit of BSing but deal with it! Econs is opinion or social science anyway.

Lim Zhen Yu (Amos)

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Article assignment

Economics of elites in Malaysia would be a pretty good name for this article because the article talks about the people and government behavior (social) and their concern about how the society and the government employs its relatively scarce elite (the employers) in the society on educational purpose and in the industries to meet the unlimited intellectual wants of the nation.

A few facts from the articles are summarized in point form:

1) 140,000 Malaysian left the country in year 2007 (given up the citizenship).

2) 305,000 Malaysian left the country between year 2008 and 2009 (over the following 1.5 year).

3) 40 percent of Malaysian emigrants headed for Singapore. 30 percent to OECD countries and 20 percent to Asian countries. 10 percent to the others.

4) Some typical reasons documented were higher salaries, better working environments, greater chances of promotion, improved employment and business prospects and a relatively superior quality of life.

Many have claimed that it was politics and racial discrimination that drive the “Brain drain” (elites leaving the country) however the author is trying to convince the reader that are many things that we Malaysian can do to make a change.

If we interpreted the current situation as a surplus in elite, the clearing prices will be lower which it is not an incentive for the elites, and still the total amount of elites is not increased in the country. Also, it is a general belief that the country is not improving without increasing in the total amount of elites in the country. Applying the supply and demand concepts, the total amount of elites within the country will be increased if the demand of elites increases.

Potentially

How if possible the demand for elites will shift to the right?

-increase in number of employers (entrepreneur)

-change in employers’ preference

-increase in GDP

-increase in price of overseas intellectual properties.

-change in price of a complementary good

-an expected high future intellectual price

Why effort of increasing intellectual demand is hard to make?

-high opportunity cost:

1) A lot of effort and time needed to manufacture the intellectual demand (using criterion mentioned above) and also it is hard to tell if it make a different.

2) Money can subsidized oil price to gain voters’ support which is an immediate visible benefit to the government.

3) Investment to make more money for the country will make funding for future education easier.

why science why?

2011-04-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

I finally knew how it felt when a science person was hit by rejection, terminated, just as I was touched back in high school studying the biology text book.

A lot from the Biology text book came to real life in college time.

The discover, the reassure, the successfulness, the technology, the experiences, etc.

The pictures are no longer just picture as they are some observation from a certain angle by an unknown person.

I am convinced that high school biology is a language class instead of science class.

The application is just the terminology that is shared across the globe.

Embraced by all this people that don't even know what it is but brings them profits.

Science is a documentary of experiences and just to make sure people repeating them correctly.

How amazing is science? It is as amazing as the person who tell you about it.

Writing down lesson learnt

2011-04-01T11:16:00.003+08:00

Today I want to write myself a reminder of an important lesson I learnt from a few elders.

I was really confident about not forgetting them when I was telling my friend Lin.

And she tried so hard to convince me that I should write it down.

Now I am doing it. Thank you Lin.

Ms Raydora spent about an hour talking to me because I was confuse about something I wasn't sure about if I should do.

To be really honest, I went to show her the earth week budget for everything, and ask her if she thinks was the appropriate amount. Well, to me, those are real money, the amount was off my imagination. And before that, I was thinking if everyone should know the account. (pretty radical right?)

She gave me a really appropriate answer. 'I don't know'.

Well, I said appropriate because things aren't as simple as it seems, that was after me convinced by her.

She told me usually when it comes to budget, she has so much to think about before coming out the appropriate figure, eg: What is the past experiences, what is the expected scenario, etc.

To make an hour story short, she reminded me people is a book you will never finish. Just at the moment you think you get something about some trend of behavior, it changed. Mr Joey in Germany once told me, ASSUME really should be written ASSume. Yes, assume is ass, he said. Never assume something when it is not true. Well, in this case, so well describing the people (especially those that you are working with).

She also told me the determination of our own, is left to our own to decide. First of all, let face it that a lot of people are different, and have really different interest that could even have conflict in their interest. She gave me a dog and cat example.

A dog can force a cat to bark but really the cat wants to meow. Maybe eventually the dog did make that cat bark but how happy would that cat be? Vice versa.

Maybe we have to decide that to what extent that we want our work to be done, and how mutually coorporation can proceed. And she emphasize, again not every case would be the same.

This is a little too long here, my summary for myself:

1) People are fun to work with.

2) Do our best the benefits everyone, backoff could be so much wiser in certain cases.

3) Good ideas might not always be appreciated, but it will always be a contribution.

4) I am having a difficult life later on because so much luck has been used.

Dear diary series

2011-03-31T12:32:00.007+08:00

I don't want to sleep tonight. I don't want this feeling to be gone by calling now the day.

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Where I had some self-reflection from this wise Black Lady, no not only her, but so many people, that made me think I think I get the reality better now. This gratefulness especially overwhelmed me due to the music group practice, where I have enough space to test my thought about myself, to feel the form of luckiness in visual, sound, everything that I summarized as atmosphere, I wanted to do one more after the last last song, and the last last last song, I didn't want my day to end.

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I didn't want to think that this is another one day, for the last month.

I am so happy for progress, but I always wanted more from awesome.

I wish I could have... but instead, I thank that I had.

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Then feel the next I am. For I will, being calm and steady, and happy of being best of I am. I think I know things start from zero again. Sometimes, I will pause and close my eyes, dominant the sense with all the previous I am, which I can summarize it as, I did, or I was. I had an aesthetic realization own self today.

UNIVERSITY%20TOWNS

2011-03-28T12:48:00.001+08:00

DR. Mahatir on University town! UNIVERSITY%20TOWNS I support this idea~ This will be the future trend.

Stacking up courage of life

2011-03-24T11:21:00.003+08:00

I like it.
A day I get some work done, and I went to all my classes, and finding that there's a little extra piece of knowledge that I can use in ma life.

And I like it, for I have done so many one's possibly can do in a day, and repeating the rythm for this period of time. For I learn, I see, I hear, I improve each daygiving me hope that I can really possibly being somebody one day, somebody, at least I am proud of.

I want to pray to god, and I say it quietly in my heart, I felt it, thank you, I am saying it from my heart, now I don't mind a little not-so-good-thing to happen once a while in life. Thank you, god.

I appreciate each piece of my memory, and tear up when it puzzlely matches with yours. I like it when the little things courage me up through my life, and make me BIG.

poem from a list

2011-03-21T08:22:00.001+08:00

The sky gave me a surprise,

I held my head up, and the sky introduced me the super moon.

I smiled and nodded at the sky,

But at that time I still can’t take physics out of my mind, ‘Hmm, what is physic? Is it real?’

Even if Einstein told me his solution, I would have to find the answer out myself.

I’m pretty sure I can sort it out by myself,

But I don’t mind watching TED online,

I have to make sure no one steal my ideas and tell it to the public.

Really (I am just kidding).

If I am preparing a talk for the TED stage,

I will introduce the person that is with me all the time, wherever I go, whatever I do, she’s with me every moment of ma life. Not my ID card, not passport, she is XXX.

Right now I look around in my room, and I think, when can all these work be discovered, and with these work, I will be able to make my dreams come true. Well, how?

Actually I realized these work can’t make my dreams come true, but I can smell, a day, I am standing in front of all the Malaysians, telling them a few things about environmental degradation, that bugs me a lot. Malaysia sometimes, the best thing is in us, we don’t need the western countries to tell us what roads to build, what tower to plan, and which forest to sell.

We are wealthy, Malaysia, we are wealthy.

I can also smell the rotting food waste from my compost experiment, and I realized I just got home from the lab.

If only I live in the lab, I would be able to finish all my energy and fell asleep at the time I should be.

Not like now, I keep watching videos but I am still having the energy to stay awake.

I am kinda glad actually. I am lucky to be inspired by Sarah Kay on TED today.

Sarah Kay: If I should have a daughter ... | Video on TED.com

2011-03-20T12:10:00.001+08:00

Sarah Kay: If I should have a daughter ... Video on TED.com

Poet's poem felt by people all around the world.
What a spirit!

ten things I know is true in 3 , 2, 1, reminder: don't think too hard:

1) The huge moon today made me smile.
2) I was so attracted to Sarah Kay on TED talk.
3) I am so proud of the decorations in my room.
4) I am happy with who I am right now.
5) I think about an imaginary people that I will meet when I am working full time in my own passion.
6) I want to learn physic.
7) There's a few things I want to tell about environmental degradation.
8) I am suppose to sleep earlier but I am always late.
9) At one point today I feel like I wish the lab and my home has zero distance.
10) I stink after collecting data each time.

thought on you and me

2011-03-15T09:31:00.002+08:00

Life is about being you and yourself.

Sometimes I hope everything is about fate, so that I won't think that I did so wrong in any circumstances and any moment in life.
Life can be pretty bad if we do not think that we are awesome inside out.
At least, we have to be satisfied with who we are and know that tomorrow we will try to be the one we satisfied from our heart.

With this way, happiness seems more sustainable than being so dependent on circumstances.

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When we are understanding someone, we have to listen, see and feel with our heart.
Try to understand it, then agree, give feeback or suggest improvements. This is half of a true communicating.

-Drama teachers.

The other half of communication would be expressing ourselves.

Confucious says,
When we express more than what we meant, it shows we are :
1.impatient
2.irritable
3.impetuous
4.rash
5.irascible (from google translator: 急躁)

When we express less than what we meant, it shows that we:
1.hide
2.conceal
3.hold back (from google translator: 隐瞒)

Drama teacher added:
And in terms of expression, appearance counts, body languages counts, emotion counts, and languages certainly counts. (If we only communicate through languages, we are no difference than robots.

But, in recent days, really not much people knows how to be articulate about what they mean.

I would love to believe that everyone is doing what they think is good. Don't you think? There's no such thing as evil, but instead, it is just naiveness, and stupidity.

I find my life more peaceful after understand the above philosophy.

Night in the library

2011-03-10T14:47:00.001+08:00

My ever first time sleeping in library. Night.
I have a bibliography due on Friday.

All the best. 50% more!!!

It's still so crowded here

Deforestation site

2011-03-08T03:49:00.001+08:00

Well, I was looking on my housing area on Google Map one day, and I was a little surprised to see the clear cutting was happening just right near my housing area.
I knew The Forest Area was decreasing for housing and roads.
I was not aware of the scale of the clear cutting area. Also from the satellite images, we can see the way they plan housing area was not intelligent.

Q:Why is it not inteligent?
A: There's so many houses, but one main road to get in or out of the housing area. Why do you think we have traffic jam every single day? Traffic Jam is not unavoidable, and it is not natural causes.

I have never really seen a clear cut Rain Forest throughout my life. Since the sites were so close to my house back in Malaysia, I should definitely visit them and give myself some life time experiences.

Q: Well, why should we visit these sites?
A: These are the images that the western people look at when they are looking at our country other than the petronas twin tower and KL tower.

Well, I really hope everyone can understand their living environment and know how the environment is related to our life.

Re: Pusat Sains Negara Sequel

2011-03-01T22:34:00.001+08:00

http://planetofthemonyets.blogspot.com/2011/02/pusat-sains-negara-sequel.html

check this blog out and help pusat sains negara!!!
Give them some IDEAs!!!

Thank you!

My Spring 2011. 27th Feb.

2011-02-28T04:01:00.004+08:00

I felt like I was having too much free time early this semester.
I watched so many movies online, I drew some pictures over the weekend, and I join College events just to fill up my free time.

As I wished, I get to learn/practice a little bit of singing in the Music Society on Campus. I still like the idea that singing can touche or inspire people. Most importantly still, it's free. Love it free air.
I performed once, which I did one of my all time favourite song 'Country Road, Take me Home'.
I love how people (we) blend together when we are listening to each other and trying to fit the best of us in. And I like how it does build up the song.

I don't have a good video to show though, I should try to record a video of us singing.

I'm getting my food waste later in about half an hour.
I think I haven't mentioned I am doing an experiment on increasing composting rate using oyster mushrooms. I am nervous yet excited. Wish me best of luck.

Also, I starting to like the GIS class because I found the practical usage of drawing a map for my housing area. Sigh well, I am talking a lot, hope at the end of the semester I can actually conduct some real useful work. Wish myself best of luck.

I am taking Economic class this semester, it makes me feel like starting a business which I should not, erm, I don't think I will. But who knows. I wish myself luck in this particular class where I really have no idea about why we bother reading it.

Good Luck

Reminder

2011-02-22T13:46:00.001+08:00

Be local, engage local.

Remember the Lost of Paradise: Sylvia Earle

Choice of food to fight obesity and safe lifes: inspired by Jamie Oliver

Deal with the nastiest waste, the Electronic waste and hazardous substances: inspired by The story of stuff, Hui Tian Tian

Growing food locally inspired by the Growing Power

Education like Rafe Esquith

Like how life's like.

2011-02-13T03:59:00.003+08:00

Oh I took part in a music performance for a small event on campus.
I did vocal (aka singing), and I loved the way our voice harmonized.
Singing is good. It makes life happier, creates better atmosphere and most importantly, it is free and portable! :D (quoted from conversation with some friends: Lin and etc.

Low budget wise, do acapella. Way better.

I forgot to ask them if they want to take a group photo. That would make me more an Asian I guess. x) Asian proud.

I am glad that I actually tried to take part in performances, performing still mean something in my life. Thank you to music society, especially the guitarist (Kevin?) and Tina, Karl (the violinist).

Yesterday, my Malaysian friend Fatimah actually said that my English is better than average Malaysian which I did not expect that at all. I stunned for a moment and I recalled back then when I was in highschool, I never knew my life will turn out like this. I never knew this English blog is going survived, and I never knew I actually speak and read English so fast. (and write too, guess what I'm doing duh).

Again I am grateful for it seems like a plan I have done but really it was not my plan at all.

I like it so far.

Oh I am in the Life Sciences Complex located in the Life Science Building now waiting for a bus home. I like it more if it is called the Complex Life Sciences.

Salam

2011-02-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

Whenever something happens, we ask ourselves that how can we not judge.
Perhaps, the meaning of judging hass slightly changed.
It is always good to know what has happened and learn from it.

Not to judge could mean, be nice, don't mean something offensive.

There was a period of time, I was such peaceful, and at one point I felt I was isolated from the world.

But really, now I think being such peaceful prepare us for the world.

weary thoughts

2011-02-04T22:36:00.003+08:00

Live off new things and the element of surprise doesn't seem not long lasting.
I personally experienced the motivation triggered by things that are new and ideas that are fresh and warm.
Therefore I might not like doing what people already knew, or what other people are doing. (But I heard there's nothing new under the sun in a longer time scale.)

Or I should then live with my own, make myself feel good in doing something I think it will be interesting to do.

I really don't know how artist sustain their life, but it is totally amazing to know they are still alive.

Sometimes I worry too much

I want to sing a song for you.

2011-01-27T11:17:00.002+08:00

I believe singing will just make one's life better. Really.
I remember last year 2010 Christmas, I have a Christian friend Jessica Loke brought a few of us to a Christian old folks hospital to sing Christmas song. And right now, I'm still telling myself believe it or not, so many people cried when we started singing. That punches right into my heart.

I believe singing to people around us help us communicate with people and it is one of the good options to show appreciation of somebody.

Not only that, it makes our life happier sometimes. Well, still singing is a tool, it still depends on who is singing, and the meaning behind it.

Right now, I want to practice singing, either for Christmas, for better, happier life (to pick up girls, I know this is not happening), for u know, something to do during free time.

Americans Idol is a fun show to watch, well it also remind me that I'm so behind and I need so much practices.

If I am there, I will take good care of popo (grandma)

2011-01-11T13:10:00.001+08:00

There's a saying, the old one must go for the new one, so I think of it as, my grandpa is gone and all he might want at the end could be, he wants us to live well, do goods, make sure we are not hungry at all times, [remember he used to ask 'chi liao mei you?' (Have you eaten?)], study hard so that we can live a good life, (it's proven in my parents' generation higher education level than their own, also that's the last order he gave me), I want him to watch from the sky and be happy about how we make each other's life better through time, I want to tell my children (if it happened) that my grandpa told me how they make it to the Malaysia, and how number puts together can make money. (Toto makes him some money that worth more than other money.) And I miss how he ‘layan’ (purposely make a person feel not so bad) my dad’s 100^th times car plate joke. I am really sorry that I am not there, and I am so sorry that I am not with popo(grandma) right now, I am in mei kok (The US) ah, very far, I can only come back after my graduation, I want to find job, save money for air ticket, gong gong I miss you. I’ll be good okay?

Walking in UNL, with a little non related intro, or is it?

2011-01-08T02:15:00.005+08:00

'It's all about money.' This childhood advise remind me of the picture below, and also reminded me what one of my friend's parents once told me (arguing my view that 'we have to realize what is our quality of life and how's the living environment loses its quality') , 'Money is the living quality', they said.

'THE BOSSES AND THE NON BOSSES, AND THAT'S TRUE'

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Downtown Nebraska, an artistic piece of garbage was found at one of the corner of the junction.
I think one is just enough, it doesn't look nice in a repeating pattern, but will this(using garbage to do design) be our future trend? Since garbage is a huge problem now.

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On UNL campus! What's ECO friendly?
a cartridge refilling machine! But really, I don't know if it helps.

On UNL campus as well! The recycling bins (for aluminium and plastic, namely, can drinks and bottle drinks [not glasses]) ! hidding among the trash can, it's really hard to spot, but we found one! It's near the Modern Art Museum on campus as well... more recycling bins were found in the Union building.

for more information please consult:
http://recycling.unl.edu/

please be a responsible resident!
and please ask them about, the recycling for glasses as well, Andy said he will do his best to ask that question (but not very likely, he said).

Planet of the Monyets: This is the Year of the Forests

2011-01-07T14:20:00.001+08:00

Planet of the Monyets: This is the Year of the Forests

Heyllo! Year 2011 is the year of Forest!
Check the link below as well to get a most up to date Events of the Year
www.un.org/en/events/iyof2011/events.shtml

New Year Resolution

2011-01-01T17:25:00.002+08:00

I'm looking forward to people that I'll spend time with,
I'm looking forward to new tools for better living,
I'm looking forward to better understanding of life,
I'm looking forward to try new ideas to inspire people around and etc.

(and etc. works, it means reserved for extra.[ted has a talk says it works if i did understand what he said])

I shall define the Goals for an Environmental Science student (me) to achieve at the begining of every year,

As a Environmental Science student, I should:
(a) Remind people the real living quality is the harmony within us and with people around us.

(b) Reconnect people to the origin of the economy, which is the food products, energy, and raw material.

(c) Demonstrate that every individual can make a different, such as raising awareness to people around us.

(d) Learn how to communicate effectively, and think of more ways to make everyone's life better.

(e) Improve myself through all possible ways (with high consideration of others, especially parents' money).

(f) and etc.

I suck at hinting

2010-12-30T02:30:00.004+08:00

Grandpa admitted to the hospital.
Grandma was alone acompanying grandpa in the hospital when I called.
Everyone will visit grandpa.
My brother is there for my grandma all the time.
I want to be there too, I want to say my degree is not as important as my grandpa.
Because there're bills need to be paid, or to prevent the crowd in the hospital, we chose to be busy to kill our sadness. It will also be chaotic when everyone is not doing what they suppose to do. (what a sick company or society)

I imagine me meself don't want to feel sad when it's my dad lying on the hospital bed.
He might spend his time thinking why he spend so much time bringing us up.

Even we can't help medically (sometimes medicine doesn't help too), being there does help even you suck at being emotional.

Hafizah Jamal helped me to summarize my thought through a Q & A section on facebook.
Thank you so so much for being a friend that is there for me. I really appreciate it and I'll remember to hire you as my staff in my future company.

Subject to change my mind.

2010-12-29T01:14:00.004+08:00

Humans are about relationship, feelings, motivation and aspiration.
Please agree with me that current system is improving to achieve better living quality without neglecting the essence of humans.
We are the current system. A good system is good because each part of the system functioning well.
As Master Jing Kong said, any kind of national system is fine, as long as the leader has the love and compassion for his or her people.
I felt that it's tru because I think there's no differences in terms of happiness and hope for a living in all kind of systems between so many countries that I have been too.
It really depends on the leader. (Not blaming, I want to become one too)

I describe language as tools, whether the words are good or bad, they really depend on the person who are using it.
I see systems as a tool too. Since no human should say they have the perfect system, the tool is subject to sharpen or improves or evolves.
Since so, I would also like to mention, Money is a tool too. (to blindfold, to harmonize, to harm, to ...)

Logic is somehow linear thinking and so tiny to speak. (Compare to the world, no offense)

The point is just a link

2010-12-20T02:59:00.003+08:00

I went to the basketball court in SU gym today.
I went alone, there was another 'alone' guy shooting basketball in other court. (There're 3 courts in total.)
I was bored, and I walked around the gym. The dancing room (, with mirror) was apparently empty. (It's winter break, everyone went home)
I was holding my basketball, looking into the mirror.
I could neither do the basketball moves in NBA or in High School Musical.
Looking into the mirror, I could also see a tall long, bamboo stick-like guy, with long straight reaching eyebrows hair (covering eyes), which I hardly believe I am still so thin.
I'm in US and I ate a lot but nothing seems to work.

After I had enough fun being in front of a mirror, doing whatever I could do, I went back up to the basketball court.
It reminded me, an accident I caused that eventually my friend's basketball got taken away by the teacher. (when I was walking down the stairs, I drop the basketball and it hit a teacher's head.)
I also recalled how attached I was to basketball because I used to sleep with basketball, and I used to practice it from morning to evening, even few times until I fall asleep.
My nasilemak record was 4 pack of nasi lemak and it was after I play basketball for whole day.

I think the video speech 'the last lecture' by Randy Pausch was right, basketball was really part of my life that helps me learned making fun of each other. (I meant the tolerant of being teased and accept opinions.)
I also recalled, the love in volleyball, because it take turns? Once it get started, the momentum kepts building up. (not the physical momentum, no one likes the pain)

(incase you are interested, this is the link: )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo

I hope I shared the boredness I'm having right now, and hope everyone has a nice time in life.

Another good stuff!!

2010-12-19T10:18:00.002+08:00

Remember the last blog I introduced? (I'm talking to the air)
Do you like watching pictures from National Geographic Magazine? (i meant nice picture)
Well, there's a blog with really nice pictures, mostly nature related, I can tell because I read it before!
Now you can watch it for FREE!

By a Malaysian, I introduce it to you
MyJourney
website: http://rainfield61.blogspot.com

Enjoy!

story

2010-12-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

The process of studying Environmental Science really blew my mind.
This is a depressing major. But I really have fun learning something besides fairy tales. I started to learn laughing at all the problems to overcome the dule problem solving life.

a) I remember I was longing to meet someone, 'Superman', that can help the Environment in Malaysia once I convinced him that we really need help.
b) Well ofcourse I was a slight inordinary, more of naive kid. The end of my fairy tales starts here in the US.
c) It turns out, everyone was already so convinced that the world environment needs help and everyone is in the process of being a Superman. None thinks there's a 'Superman' yet.
d) And as a city people, I learned that the norms are the problems. Fossil fuel, People overpopulated, Capatalism Economy, which is the typical guy's needs: Car, Girl and Money. I was shocked. Well, we still have TV. (TV is neutral.)

I started look more into religious teaching. I love Jesus and I love Buddha. I cannot love one and saying the other is wrong. It make me feel bias, cause they left us with such great teachings. Thou shall love. And yep, I love the imaginary everyone. Both Jesus and Budda share their wealth or possess, (well maybe they never possess anything at the begining)

Good stuff! An awesome blogger worth to share!

2010-12-17T03:51:00.003+08:00

I think I'm totally a city kid now.

There's actually so many Nature lovers in Malaysia, especially Sabah. After reading so many Sabahans' awesome blogs, I think I have to do something for the environment in the 'city kids' way.

www.roseragai.blogspot.com

Check this blogger out! I'm so impressed and heart melted.

The material flow and my answer for Dr Mahatir

2010-12-12T03:16:00.007+08:00

Above is a sketch of material flow. (let me know if the diagram is not practical enough)

If there's no major disagreement with the diagram, we may start.

Dr Mahatir mentioned the waste producing in KL especially need to be awared of because of the increase accumulating waste. And it seems using incinerator (burning the trash) might pollute the air and the people will go against it.

First of all,

i) material flow is largely linear in our system.

ii) regeneration of trash is much slower than the generation of trash. (Generally believed)

iii) Accumulation = Flow In - Flow Out

If we have more loop going backward it might help decreasing the rate of accumulation.

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As answer to Dr. Mahatir's question:

1) I suggest more waste should be burnt to produce energy only if we are willing to invest in high efficiency incenarator and super high efficiency(up to 99.99% efficiency) Air Pollution Control devices. We can sell the energy and save up a lot space. Economically not too stupid. (Eventhough the investment on the air pollution control devices is really really high but i think it's worth the price)

2) I would also like to emphasize regeneration of trash is largely by biological work (usally by bacteria and fungi). Products like spores and dehydrated bacteria (just as yeast powder) should be invested and giving it out free to the people to decompose their own organic waste. (Some fungi can even decompose oil products)

3) The little green arrow looping back from the household the the firm. The idea came from selling back the reproduced pets to the firm. Have more local firm buying and selling local products can help! For example, kniting sweater from the household and selling it at local firm. Or plant some crops locally and selling it back to the local people.

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The burning of trash would produce CO2 and Steam to the atmosphere but this would be the best solution for the current system.

Assuming BN reluct or not enable to change our economic system to some significant degree.

I really hope and love people to comment on this post.

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Some extra information:

http://www.unep.or.jp/ietc/publications/spc/State_of_waste_Management/6.asp

the table 6. on the bottom of the web page shows the portion of different ways to deal with the waste.

RUBBISH

2010-12-11T01:18:00.003+08:00

RUBBISH

Dr. Mahatir is addressing waste issue in Malaysia.

First of all, this is not anything general Malaysian would care or think about 5 years ago.
The government didnt mention it because they have much important things to deal with before thinking of problem related much with the people's living environment.

Population increased so dramatically, even now, we shouldn't be surprised with what we will face in some near future time.
1) Trafic Jam
2) Enough material for distribution (also related to price but more poeple will take care of the price)
3) Living quality- leisure time, places to spend the leisure time (Natural property)
4) Trash

Even more than what I'm aware of here could happen.
Sometimes, when someone didn't mention about the problem doesn't mean it does not exist.
Very often, problems were not prevented when they become a fact we accepted. Such as the traffic jam.

Think about it Malaysian.

Dr Mahatir asked for solution.
To make a long word short, changing the Economic system is a solution.
It's definitely possible when we expand our thinking box a bit. (quite a lot actually)

I'll try to write an idea here.

we'll have a Good life

2010-12-10T12:03:00.003+08:00

I am convinced that being inclusive can make life better.

I had a really great year in 2007.
A year that everyone's existence was seen, and was happy being with everyone, every single one. Unfortunately, it was only that we were convinced that we were one big group and family. It ended as graduation was over.

I was so impressed by the extent of inclusive, the diversity allowed among a group of people.

I remembered I kept repeating it because no one seems inpressed when I mentioned the inclusive atmosphere was the most amazing thing in our group. Which it was out of my expectation.

I still think everyone is doing things that he or she thinks is right to do.
I think I want to spend a large amount of my life summarizing why is being inclusive so important. So every decision made by anyone could have significant portion for the goods of people around.

Wish you a good life, wish you includes and being included.

refuse to learn is not the way you become better.

2010-12-08T14:02:00.003+08:00

What if the pleasure of having readers urge me write something that is not fully thought of? or not of real feelings? It would definitely confuse myself when I look back to these in the future. The point I want to make is, I'm also learning... to be articulate, to understand, to stay honest to our own and so ...

Marcel Dicke: Why not eat insects? | Video on TED.com

2010-12-04T12:05:00.001+08:00

I would love to relate this talk to the biodiversity and forest reserve issue in the Malaysia :)
We really don't know how much we are losing, to be honest, even the wisest people on earth now. Who know's what's next? =D

Marcel Dicke: Why not eat insects? Video on TED.com

I also think about, if this really became more practical, it is really a world shift, in terms of mindsets and what we do. It's like before computer and after computer that people of my age felt about.

before insects and after insects, what do you think ?

I press the like button on my home.

2010-12-04T08:17:00.002+08:00

Recently I have received 120s years of summarized life wisdom and lessons from both my parents and my brother.
It was overwhelmed with experiences and love (okay it's really really cheesy).
I think text book should be written by real parents. (and exercise and problem solving questions can be written by the elder brother and sister)
So that our life is secured, and always do good.

Let me relate something in our lives to my lesson learned.
1.) Maybe as a family we didn't do a lot of things together before grandpa injured his leg. (watching TV does count as one thing, perhaps the only one in a lot of days in the past.)
2) I think grandpa's leg wants us to know maybe shopping is not the best thing to do so much.
3) Even maybe we started counting down his days/her days too early (Oops), and he's/she's not happy about it.
I think debate the undebatable is sometimes when we really make some changes, for example, getting older can mean more happening in life (maybe we just have to make it happen).

We as a family really don't have much thing to do in life, that's why we loves it when sister bring us to explore new food in town, new place to go. Perhaps we can do something else.

I love the old days when sister was so proud of her work and showing us her art work.
And I never tell I adore her work so much. (I intentionally showed my friends as if it's unintentionally done)
I love my mama doing sewing, I love popo cooking and sewing, I love when gor do his awesome work. I'm so easily impressed. But I never tell.
And sometimes, when they never tell, I know they are impressed by what I am doing. and I like it!

HOUSING

2010-12-01T01:47:00.006+08:00

Tun Mahatir talks about something related to development in KL:
HOUSING

I don't know why I can't comment on Dr Mahatir's blog...
T_T { they don't let me sign in)

?
I wonder if this has something to do with the traffic jam issue?
I don't know. But it just reminded me of the exponential growth video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-QA2rkpBSY/

I'm pretty sure, transportation or logistic plays a kinda important role in the economy...
I'm not sure but it relates with each other in my mind.

Tun Dr Lim Chong Eu

2010-11-25T23:34:00.001+08:00

I have learn a lesson, about Malaysia, TUN DR LIM CHONG EU, I think most Malaysian focus on unnecessary conflicts. It's like two children crying over two candy, not realizing both can have one.

Don't tell me it's complication that triggers people to do so, in other words, that is the stupidness that causes the image of evil.

I love ma Home.

How I not like you?

2010-11-24T13:09:00.003+08:00

Meeting new people is always such a different experience.

I learn not to fall into the cultural thing and I learn not to judge bad, but I do judge good, so I could learn from them, and hopefully have something to talk about with them?

Here's a piece of love to those that my cultural would not like well, but after personally taught by drama teacher that it is possible to see the beauty inside of everyone, I still love you, take a piece... you can have the bigger one.

Because I cannot handle big one. I always break it especially when I see things through my own eyes.